Type 1 Diabetes

If you have type 1 diabetes it does not get easier, it does not get better.

It is Type 1 diabetes. Your pancreas does not function properly. Your body produces cells that attack the insulin making cells and therefor your body can not produce insulin.

So right now as my little girls momma I am also her pancreas and this means every day I do complex mathematical equations so that my daughter can eat the food I eat. I do these equations so I know how much insulin to give her. However I have no mathematical formulas for when she is happy or sad or excited etc and it is these moments that change her blood sugar levels drastically. So when you are trying to support me and make me feel better about diabetes don't tell me it will get better, or that it will get easier because the truth is - It won't change.  I still have to test her blood everyday, this will never change. I still have to calculate how much insulin to give her, this will never change. I still have to pester her everyday about what she will and will not eat, this will never change. I still watch her numbers go from 1 to 20mmols, She will always have to deal with this and these numbers make her tired, cranky close to death or long term complications. Diabetes will not change. It will not get easier.

Oh wait the moment that maybe just maybe it will get easier for me is when Lizzie does it herself. She can do all the carb counting, mathematical formulas, insulin giving and in essence keep herself alive. But when she burns out what then ....No child should have this as their future.