Where have the days gone. Winter has come and gone, as has Christmas and the year 2010. So many memories always get crammed into such a little period called Christmas. This year ours was more different than we could have ever imagined. I, like many, was raised loving Christmas and believed in the magic that came with it. So naturally this is how i want to raise my little ones. So this Christmas started out better than ever. We had our Christmas budget and I was ready (and willing to shop). By Dec 13 I was done shopping and on Dec 13th we hopped on a plan and flew to Edmonton. Here we drove to Camrose and spent 2 glorious weeks in Alberta with family. It was the best ever for me and the kids. Unfortunately Vince was stuck working so he was not with us. Our time in Alberta ended Dec 23 and we hopped on the plane back to Vernon. Vince was home that same day so it was a wonderful reunion.
Dec 24, Christmas Eve the first day of presents and celebration and our family being together. Unfortunately for Lizzie she was not feeling well. But we chalked it up to travel, excitement and a possible infection so we went on with our day. Christmas day came and Lizzie could not and would not get out of bed. This concerned Vince and I. Two days later and we headed off to the drop in clinic. Waiting for the Doctor to confirm that it was simply an infection we were shocked when he calmly told us that she had diabetes.
He sent us off to the emergency and 5 days later we headed home. It has now been 4 months since diabetes has entered our lives. Every day I wonder how this is possible and why. I went from having the attitude that nothing could happen to us to what is next or who is next. I am 5 months pregnant today and it is a wonderful celebration. Our baby will be a boy and we are so excited but this time I can't help being afraid of what is out there that could harm my little one. Whereas when I was pregnant with Lizzie and Jack nothing could get us, we were strong and invicible - maybe this is not so true anymore.
But I guess it all comes down to how you handle things. Our life has gone on and for the last four months we have learned how to live with diabetes. Or shall I say Elizabeth has learned how. She is such a strong 4 year old. I could not imagine having to endure what she goes through everyday and yet she does it and always with a smile and a giggle. Through all the finger pokes and blood sucking and needles or insertions she stays her happy little self and plays like a 4 year should play.
I would give my life to have diabetes taken away from Elizabeth but I am thankful that diabetes did not take her life.
